Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Our Boy

Having to make this blog private is kind of bitter sweet. I am totally bummed out I can't share it with all the people who have followed Anton's story for so long but I am so excited I can now post pictures since it's private. With that being said PLEASE NEVER NEVER take any content off this blog and post it anywhere else.

This is Anton somewhere between eight and ten months old. This is when he was in the first hospital. They didn't know how to care for him so they swaddled him all day and as far as we know never really interacted with him. He had pneumonia several times and the doctors have said they don't know how he survived. What amazes me it despite all that he is still smiling.

This is Anton around 11 months. He had been transferred to a different hospital where they love him and take amazing care of him. He has a nanny that lives at the hospital with him and all the staff really care about him. They are all super excited that he is coming home to us but are also really going to miss him.

Here he is at about 19 months old. He is doing so good and is getting so big. I long for the day when I get to hold our boy and kiss those cheeks!
Our dossier is in Anton's country and is translated but the Ministry of Education is still closed down and we can't move forward until they reopen. It was getting really hard to wait not knowing why the Ministry of Education was closed down and not really knowing how long they were going to be closed I was getting super frustrated but then I was reading the Book Respectable Sins (confronting the sins we tolerate) and it said this "If I complain about the difficult circumstances of my life, I impugn the sovereignty and goodness of God and tempt my listener to do the same." I was so convicted by this statement. I will say all day long that God is sovereign and I trust Him but when it comes down to it if I am complaining and saying I want to be in Anton's country NOW and I wont be happy until that happens then I am not trusting that God is sovereign. I am wanting my way and my way now. I have repented for doing this and I pray you will forgive me if by my complaining I have cause you to doubt the goodness or sovereignty of God.

If you don't mind praying for us we would love that. Please be praying that we would glorify God through this process and that in His perfect timing we would be able to go get our boy.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
         And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
         And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6


  1. Vanessa,
    Thank you so much for inviting me to see your new blog! I love it, it is adorable and your little guy is just beautiful!!! I can't wait for you to get him home but I really loved the insight that when we complain we are engaging others in the thought that God cannot be trusted. I am soo right there with you being convicted and just last night had to repent for my disloyal heart and controlling ways!! :) love your heart my friend...praying for peace and patience for both of us...God's got this!!

  2. Thanks for the invite, Vanessa! Will you do us a favor and let us know on the FB group when any developments happen, because I don't think to check private blogs without some sort of reminder. They don't show up on the dashboard. :( Totally understand what you're doing, though. Gotta be safe! I can't wait for you to bring this amazing little guy home. Like you say...all in the perfect timing, and you are so awesome for remembering to trust the one who knows all!